I've been working on this sermon for what feels like weeks. Kind of because I have been. Except that I took all last week off.
I knew from the beginning, when St. Mark's asked me to preach, that I would have to talk about my time in Japan. St. Mark's and Praise were the two churches that did the most to sponsor me...and I had a lot of personal support from family friends at St. Mark's who sent me letters and email and care packages while in Japan. When I requested children's books, they came through in epic form. I think I had over 100 by the time they were done...and I really only needed 10 or so. :)
So, yeah...St. Mark's needs to hear what they helped with.
The problem is, I find it difficult to really talk about my time in Japan. Not because it was bad, or that I don't want to talk about it--more because I don't really have any epic, life-changing stories that one comes to expect from missionary experiences.
So how do I write a sermon about my time in Japan, when I don't really have a lot to say? I gave a talk about the generalities of Japanese Christianity to my parents' Sunday School class just after returning. And that went well. People seemed really interested in it. But that won't really work for a sermon.
A couple of weeks ago, I preached at St. Paul's in Boise City, and I did a kind of "rough draft" missions sermon for them that I hoped I could adjust and reuse for this occasion. Unfortunately, I was never very happy with how that sermon came out. And it didn't go over all that well at St. Paul's. Again, it didn't go over badly...I just don't think people really understood it, or they didn't feel like it was a pressing issue in their lives. That...and I just had a hard time figuring out what I was trying to say.
And that's the problem I'm having. I want to say something. I've been asked to say something. I just don't know what that something is. But this is part of the job--when there is no time to wait for creativity to just flow, and you just have to force it. And very few things hurt worse than forcing your own creativity.